Pants

I've come to find that my pants aren't quite fitting like they used to. They still button up and are fine when I'm up and about, but sitting tends to get quite uncomfortable. Often times (when I'm at home) I've found I have to at least undo the top button if not part of the zipper as well. This leads me to an interesting problem of trying to sit down in public. I have dipped into Alan's exercise pants on occasion, but they aren't exactly the best thing to wear around anyone but Alan, seeing as how they have a huge rip in the crotch. And I haven't gotten so desperate yet that I'm wearing his jeans. I have come up with a temporary solution to my shrinking pants problem, at least until my bloat gets too big for it. I've resorted to the old close your pants with a rubber band looped through the button hole method. But again, this creates another problem. With my pants a little looser, I've discovered that I often have the plumbers crack syndrome...

So the choice is, wear my pants normally until they get so tight I can't stand it anymore, or help them survive longer and just make sure I'm wearing a long enough shirt? Decisions, decisions...

Pregnancy Insanity

That's the 'medical' term for what the increased amounts of progesterone during pregnancy does to the female psyche. In other words, it makes me:

• Ask Alan at least three times a day whether or not I have taken my prenatal vitamins (always after I have already taken them)
• Not just experience the misty-eyes-and-a-few-sniffles movie cry, but full-body, uncontrollable racking sobs while watching "Les Mis"
• Ask Alan a question, then a few minutes later ask him the same question because I've already forgotten what his answer was
• Have vivid dreams about competing in "The Amazing Race" when I suddenly lose all my clothes and only have a blanket to cover me while living as the only married couple in the Riviera Apartment complex and the Joker is out to get Alan who has just been given the ranking of "Knight"
• Threaten to throw things at Alan on a regular basis
• Get so incredibly mad at Alan's computer for restarting in the middle of my "Harvest Moon" game and erasing all my progress that I won't speak to it or even look at it for days

That's all I can think of right now.

Sunday, September 14th, 2008

I'm about 10 weeks along now. We made it back to Provo alright, but it wasn't a very fun ride. At least its over with. I've thrown up a couple more times, but things haven't been too bad. It just depends on the day. Some days I'm just fine, and other days my stomach is churning so bad I can hardly do anything. I'm really ready for the first trimester to be over. I finally have insurance now. I'm on the Baby Your Baby program until Medicaid comes through. I have a pre-doctor's appointment (with just the nurse) tomorrow, and then my first appointment with the OB on the 2nd when Alan can go with me. I had to make some compromises, and so the doctor I"m going to see is a guy. But I liked his credentials, and he looks like he's nice from his picture. And he's with the American Fork hospital, and they have really nice facilities. And I know that if I don't like him, I can always change and find a different doctor. Alan and I have new callings in our ward. We're going to be nursery workers. :) I"m really excited for it. Not only is it a fun calling, but that means I get snack time!

Sunday, August 24th, 2008

I made it through my last week of work at the pool. Finally. I thought it would never come. My stomach is still not too happy, which make it hard to sit down at the pool all day everyday. But it's done now and I'm glad. Now we just have to pack up all of our stuff into our little car and drive home. My stomach was feeling a little better the last few days, or so I thought. I threw up for the first time this morning, and it wasn't very pleasant. So I'm not sure what I would rather have, my tummy more upset but everything staying down, or it feeling a little better but throwing up. I don't know. I guess we'll just have to see what happens.

Wednesday, August 20th, 2008

I'm about six weeks along now, and the morning, or rather all-day, sickness has set in. It seems like everything turns my stomach, and my stomach is never settled. I haven't been throwing up, thank goodness, but I've come close a few times. Everything seems to be turning me off. I can't really stand chicken, or milk, cereal, and sort of ham sandwich... chocolate is ok in small amounts, but I can't stand the smell of it. Smells really bother me. We went out to dinner last night with Alan's office, and I was doing really well until all the main courses came out. I was just bombarded with all the smells of all the different foods... It was really hard to handle. I barely ate any of my own dinner. I had to take most of it home it was so bad. I'm ready to go home to Utah, but I'm really not looking forward to the long drive. Even short drives get my stomach churning.

Saturday, August 9th, 2008

We started telling everyone yesterday. Alan's mom called saying that she got the package and she opened it on the phone with us listening. After I went down to the pool I called my mom and told her. She got more and more excited the longer we stayed on the phone. Alan posted a picture of the last home pregnancy test we took on eleventhirteen to let the rest of my family know. Alan called and let Craig and Katie know, and I told the other Icon wives that are here last night. It was fun to finally let everyone know. It was a lot of answering the same questions over and over again. :)

Tuesday, August 5th, 2008

I took another home pregnancy test this morning... still says pregnant. We ordered and mailed off the "Grandmother" Willow Tree figurine to Alan's mom, so as soon as it gets there, we'll start telling everyone.

Saturday, August 2nd, 2008

Pregnant?!? I've been feeling a lot...different lately. Instead of my normal endometriosis pain that just pokes and pinches really hard in certain spots, its been a dull ache and a feeling of tightness in my whole abdomen. I've had to pee a lot and whenever I get hungry my stomach almost hurts too much to eat anything. So I took a home pregnancy test this morning, and it came back positive. I can't say I was really surprised, I kinda had a gut feeling that I was pregnant. I this we were both just really scared when it came back positive. At least I know I was terrified. I'm happy, I'm really happy, but at the same time really scared. We're still kind of denying it. My period isn't supposed to come until Monday or Tuesday, so there is still that slim chance that it was a false positive. We'll test again on Wednesday just to make sure. We've decided not to tell anyone until we're 100% positive that I really am pregnant. It was hard because I talked to my mom and two girlfriends today, and they all asked my "if I thought I was pregnant" or when my period was due. I wanted to tell them so bad, but I held my tongue and I didn't...